Hey, I just posted my story in the post "Birth Control Story". But I will say some of it here (you may not go over there and read it

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I am very glad that this subject came up. In January we had our thrid baby. She is beautiful and a joy to us all. Hence the name Shyahna JOY! (You can read the poam about her at
www.homeschoolblogger.com/proudmommaof3/)Â
For me when I am pregnant I am very, very sick. With my first I had 5 IV's by six weeks. I couldn't get any food or water down. Again I was severly sick with the second. This time we had a mid-wife so I was on my own trying to control this. I did go to the ER and get 2 IV"S and we tried doing IV's with a drip enema. At that time I started questioning this whole "leave it in God's Hands thing". #3 was the same thing, only this time I had a 4 year old and a 2 year old. We did drip enema's every night just so I could stay hydrated. The whole family suffered. There was nobody to take care of them. The kids mudded the side of the house. I looked out there one day to see my 4 year old getting ready to pummel my 1 year old with a base ball bat.

 Thank God I caught him in time. I spent four months laying on the couch, sick - 24,7- I can't keep anything down. We tried everything. My husband had just started a new job where he was the main contractor building a house and he was stressed to the max. Then he had to come home to a mess, cook, take care of me, and try to make some since out of the chaos.Â
No place in my Bible does it say to leave having children in God's hands. But it does say that Children are a blessing. It does say Blessed is the man with a quiver full. I know to many big familys whose children are completely unruly because Mom doesn't have time for them. i don't want that for my children. I want each one of my children to know that they are loved. I would love to have 12 kids but we may only have three. I agree with the selfiness thing too. But a person can have 12 kids and be the most selfish human being in the world. I know a man with 10 kids (#11 on the way) whose kids wear rags and he doesn't allow them to eat very much(he doesn't want them to be gluttens - he can afford to feed them properly) and he goes out and spends hundreds of $$ on new tools. Selfiness is an issue of the heart and having kid after kid does not prove that your not selfish.
Taking anything isn't an option for me neither. For one it makes me very sick and then there is the aborting factor. I have read everything on NFP and we have spaced our children very well. AND, yes, I do ask GOD to keep me from getting pregnant. I tell Him that I do not want any more. I do think God honors this. (We still use protection during fertile times!

) My last two were conceived while using protection but I had also told God that if he wanted me to get pregnant that that would be okay. We got pregnant both times.Â
I fear getting pregnant again. I haven't felt very good the last couple of days and not sure why!?! My kids have to live with out a Mother for 4 months or more. And I don't think I could do this with a new baby. Baby's do have feelings too. They are humans and I want to enjoy my new little girl (our first). I want her to know that she is truely loved. I want my kids to have a Mother!! I am especially interested in this NEEM Oil.Â
How can I get some?And if 3 to 4 years from now we decide that we want to have another one or end up having another one. We will be totally happy and will welcome a new little one into our family. But not right now!!
And as far as not feeling well. I got my Super Mom vitamens today and I took one of those along with the Yeast Assassin. And something made me sick. I started sweating and feeling really warm but I wasn't running a tempature. Then I started feeling sick to my stomach. I even burped some of it up (It tasted like the bottle smelled). Now I have a headache. Right between my eyes and down the back on my neck. I had some dizziness too.
I took the SuperMom's with echinacea. I have the kind without too. I see those have Milk Thistle in them. I hear that that is good for cleaning out the liver. Is there enough in there to do that? Because I may not want to take them to quick. I am nurseing. Another reason why i don't want to get pregnant because I want my children to be as healthy as possible.
Got to go be a MOM. Thanks for "reading" about my two cents on the subject. DeLyssa